Lexical Gap No. 38: Mediocrist
March 2023 summary
If all goes well, as you’re reading this, Bear and I will be on a plane to Japan.
If all doesn’t go well, then...
...I guess my anxiety dreams about forgetting my passport at home have come true.
Anyway, March was...a lot. After a (what was now in hindsight) manic February, I fell headlong into a depressive phase. I’ve been bipolar my entire life, you’d think I’d get better at recognizing my moods, but the problem is that mania feels so good I don’t realize it’s mania until I’m in the middle of depression and go, Oh yeah...
This time around, I can feel the effects of medication softening the crash. Lithium was a bit of a game-changer for me, especially when my psychiatrist told me that bipolar depression often doesn’t respond to anti-depressants in the same way as other t…